Accessing Want

I want

to dream
to imagine
to create
to be without limits
to write when I want to
to have access to paint brushes
to practice yoga everyday
to love myself
to read more plays, poems, stories
to discover more me
to be more me
to live more in the world
to take care of myself
to love deeply
to express my childlike joy and hurt
to appreciate other human beings and living and the molecules of the stars
someone to witness me take care of myself and love the fuck out of me no matter where I am
to dance nightly
to always wear my toenails red
to make my reality a stage
to listen to a new music album every week
big people who won't run away in the face of my practice
children who will never lose that sweet curiosity
a big swimming pool
a striped red and white bicycle
a photographic memory
a drive to take out my camera for a marked day of adventure - at least twice a month!
to travel outside of the 50 mile radius of my home once a month
to commune with nature as often as I can
loving attention to the things that are confrontational: judging women, jealousy, threatened security, etc.
to speak the moment, especially when I don't want to
to wear more hats
to explore the relationship I have with my sexuality
to take more classes that are just FUN
to be closer to the people who are good for me, even if I get bored